Exclusive: Behind the Scenes Video of Deebs & Jarell Perry's "Relapse" | Q&A with Choreographer Sophia Stoller

The warped emotional visual for "Relapse" was the result of a large collaborative effort between several rising talents. Thankfully we were able to catch some footage on set to give a glimpse into the magnitude of this crew's work. Take a look here:

To add another unique perspective, Sophia Stoller, who beautifully choreographed the piece, was gracious in answering a few questions:

What was your process for choreographing and casting the dance featured in "Relapse?" What about the song was inspiring for you?

After hearing the song, I knew I wanted the movement to be derived from an internal experience of struggle. Relapsing, be it in the situation of a toxic relationship or drugs, generally involves a physical addiction of some kind, so my feeling was that the story of this song was already inherently existing in the world of physical movement. I started my process in my living room, listening to the song on repeat and allowing it to move through my body. These repeated improvisations eventually took shape as choreographed phrases. In my conversations with Yoshino, we had discussed the dance getting progressively more desperate and violent as the song built, so each phrase incorporated a new level of intensity or struggle.  I have worked with Kayla, Dina, and Yvonne on past projects, and I knew they would each bring their own unique qualities to the movement I gave them, which something I really value in a dancer. I also knew they were able to work fast...they learned all of the movement in one short rehearsal.

The story of this song was already inherently existing in the world of physical movement.

Would you say there is a certain aesthetic or style or inspiration you're drawn to in your own work specifically? How do you describe it and what about it resonates with you?

My training as a dancer is very eclectic, and many little tastes of the styles I have studied throughout my life find their way into my choreography. I would describe the work I make as contemporary dance, but there are definitely elements of hip hop in this piece as well.  My inspiration generally comes from exploring psychological and mental states through physicality. There is so much that can be communicated about emotional experience through movement, and I am fascinated by the idea of transforming something that is very internal into something that encompasses the entire body in an outward expression of some kind. Aesthetically, I am drawn to high contrast and dynamism--choreography that surprises the eye again and again with quick shifts, subtle sharp accents, and clever punctuation.

Lock & Key, 2015

Lock & Key, 2015

I am fascinated by the idea of transforming something that is very internal into something that encompasses the entire body.

What is one of the major highlights of your career in choreography so far, the stuff you couldn't wait to share with others? A milestone, etc.

Last March I presented an entire show that I choreographed, directed, and conceptualized called "Lock & Key." The show was about physical and psychological prisons, and I collaborated with a team of incredible artists to develop an interactive set, live feed video projection, an original score of music, and lighting design that created the atmosphere of the piece onstage. The performance was my MFA thesis concert (I received my MFA in Choreography from CalArts in May 2015), so not only was it my most accomplished feat as an artist thus far, but was also a significant milestone because it signified the completion of my masters degree. Learning to edit video and creating my first dance film in 2013 was also a major highlight in my career thus far.  Video editing is all about flow and movement, and my vision as an editor, particularly when editing dance footage, is deeply informed by my work as a choreographer.

Check out an excerpt from Stoller's "Lock & Key" below:

Artist Decoded: Painter Emilio Villalba Explores Inspiration Through A Multitude Of Sources

Artist Decoded is a weekly podcast series created by emerging creative director and photographer Yoshino.

A Southern California native, Emilio Villalba received his BFA from the Art Institute of California in 2006, and his MFA in Painting from the Academy of Art University in 2011.  He currently lives in San Francisco where he teaches at the Art Institute of California and Cogswell College.

My portraits are inspired by master works, as well as the contemporary human condition. They explore the dissonance created when the familiar is fractured and distorted by outside influence.
— Emilio Villalba

3 Free Meditation Apps That Will Help You Start Again

You’ve probably guessed by now that I’m a big fan of meditation for artists, as a means of understanding the mind and fostering creativity.

But the truth is it’s hard. On top of all the things running through your mind, as soon as you sit down to try it there’s usually an intense distraction you can’t get rid of. 

Your mom is calling. The dog is barking. Your leg is numb after 30 seconds. Forget it. I know. I’ve been there. If you’re just starting out here’s some advice:

Forgive yourself. Don’t worry about doing it right - nobody’s doing it right. Just start.

Luckily there are some iPhone apps out there that can really help ease you into the process. I’ve vetted them so you don’t have to (earbuds or headphones are recommended for all of these):

Calm (free trial, subscribe for $9.99/month) - My favorite of the minimalist meditation apps right now, Calm takes you through a free 7-day series of 10-minute guided sessions, accompanied by soothing sounds like rain or crashing waves. Your screen is taken over by a relaxing moving wallpaper that you can choose to run in the background (Silent Clouds and Mountain Lake are as nice to look at as they sound).

Headspace (free trial, subscribe for $12.99/month) - Similar to Calm, Headspace’s quirky Web 3.0 animations introduce you to each guided meditation with a focus for the day. There’s more of a motivating flavor here for those who like the challenge. This app’s notifications make a game out of building the mediation habit, which may just lead you to a more consistent practice. 

Deepak and Oprah’s 21-Day Meditation Experience - Oprah and Deepak are the OGs in this space. Sign up on the Chopra Center’s website, and you’ll be notified when a free 21-day experience is available (otherwise these packages fall in the $50 range). In each session, Oprah does a very Oprah-like inspirational warm-up to the focus Deepak has for the day. After being given a mantra you’re left to yourself with ambient music, and a soft bell rings to signal the end of the full 20-minute session.

Bonus: Mediation Timer - This is for purists who just want to keep the time. Meditation timer does what it says it does, no extraordinary sights or sounds included besides the functional chimes. Often this is all you need, and for most it's the goal. After going through a few guided sessions, try this simplistic approach to see if it suits you.

And if you’ve already gotten this far, you’ll probably be interested in the 20 practical tips below, courtesy of Leo Babauta and Zen Habits. 

  1. Sit for just two minutes. This will seem ridiculously easy, to just meditate for two minutes. That’s perfect. Start with just two minutes a day for a week. If that goes well, increase by another two minutes and do that for a week. If all goes well, by increasing just a little at a time, you’ll be meditating for 10 minutes a day in the 2nd month, which is amazing! But start small first.
  2. Do it first thing each morning. It’s easy to say, “I’ll meditate every day,” but then forget to do it. Instead, set a reminder for every morning when you get up, and put a note that says “meditate” somewhere where you’ll see it.
  3. Don’t get caught up in the how — just do. Most people worry about where to sit, how to sit, what cushion to use … this is all nice, but it’s not that important to get started. Start just by sitting on a chair, or on your couch. Or on your bed. If you’re comfortable on the ground, sit cross-legged. It’s just for two minutes at first anyway, so just sit. Later you can worry about optimizing it so you’ll be comfortable for longer, but in the beginning it doesn’t matter much, just sit somewhere quiet and comfortable.
  4. Check in with how you’re feeling. As you first settle into your meditation session, simply check to see how you’re feeling. How does your body feel? What is the quality of your mind? Busy? Tired? Anxious? See whatever you’re bringing to this meditation session as completely OK.
  5. Count your breaths. Now that you’re settled in, turn your attention to your breath. Just place the attention on your breath as it comes in, and follow it through your nose all the way down to your lungs. Try counting “one” as you take in the first breath, then “two” as you breathe out. Repeat this to the count of 10, then start again at one.
  6. Come back when you wander. Your mind will wander. This is an almost absolute certainty. There’s no problem with that. When you notice your mind wandering, smile, and simply gently return to your breath. Count “one” again, and start over. You might feel a little frustration, but it’s perfectly OK to not stay focused, we all do it. This is the practice, and you won’t be good at it for a little while.
  7. Develop a loving attitude. When you notice thoughts and feelings arising during meditation, as they will, look at them with a friendly attitude. See them as friends, not intruders or enemies. They are a part of you, though not all of you. Be friendly and not harsh.
  8. Don’t worry too much that you’re doing it wrong. You will worry you’re doing it wrong. That’s OK, we all do. You’re not doing it wrong. There’s no perfect way to do it, just be happy you’re doing it.
  9. Don’t worry about clearing the mind. Lots of people think meditation is about clearing your mind, or stopping all thoughts. It’s not. This can sometimes happen, but it’s not the “goal” of meditation. If you have thoughts, that’s normal. We all do. Our brains are thought factories, and we can’t just shut them down. Instead, just try to practice focusing your attention, and practice some more when your mind wanders.
  10. Stay with whatever arises. When thoughts or feelings arise, and they will, you might try staying with them awhile. Yes, I know I said to return to the breath, but after you practice that for a week, you might also try staying with a thought or feeling that arises. We tend to want to avoid feelings like frustration, anger, anxiety … but an amazingly useful meditation practice is to stay with the feeling for awhile. Just stay, and be curious.
  11. Get to know yourself. This practice isn’t just about focusing your attention, it’s about learning how your mind works. What’s going on inside there? It’s murky, but by watching your mind wander, get frustrated, avoid difficult feelings … you can start to understand yourself.
  12. Become friends with yourself. As you get to know yourself, do it with a friendly attitude instead of one of criticism. You’re getting to know a friend. Smile and give yourself love.
  13. Do a body scan. Another thing you can do, once you become a little better at following your breath, is focus your attention on one body part at a time. Start at the soles of your feet — how do those feel? Slowly move to your toes, the tops of your feet, your ankles, all the way to the top of your head.
  14. Notice the light, sounds, energy. Another place to put your attention, again, after you’ve practice with your breath for at least a week, is the light all around you. Just keep your eyes on one spot, and notice the light in the room you’re in. Another day, just focus on noticing sounds. Another day, try to notice the energy in the room all around you (including light and sounds).
  15. Really commit yourself. Don’t just say, “Sure, I’ll try this for a couple days.” Really commit yourself to this. In your mind, be locked in, for at least a month.
  16. You can do it anywhere. If you’re traveling or something comes up in the morning, you can do meditation in your office. In the park. During your commute. As you walk somewhere. Sitting meditation is the best place to start, but in truth, you’re practicing for this kind of mindfulness in your entire life.
  17. Follow guided meditation. If it helps, you can try following guided meditations to start with. My wife is using Tara Brach’s guided meditations, and she finds them very helpful.
  18. Check in with friends. While I like meditating alone, you can do it with your spouse or child or a friend. Or just make a commitment with a friend to check in every morning after meditation. It might help you stick with it for longer.
  19. Find a community. Even better, find a community of people who are meditating and join them. This might be a Zen or Tibetan community near you (for example), where you go and meditate with them. Or find an online group and check in with them and ask questions, get support, encourage others. My Sea Change Program has a community like that.
  20. Smile when you’re done. When you’re finished with your two minutes, smile. Be grateful that you had this time to yourself, that you stuck with your commitment, that you showed yourself that you’re trustworthy, where you took the time to get to know yourself and make friends with yourself. That’s an amazing two minutes of your life.

 

An Artist's Guide to Creating Sacred Space

Know thyself, know thy space. In your home. In your relationships. In yourself. This process is sometimes overlooked in the hurry to create more art and do more work, but it really is an essential tool for any lifestyle. 

I look at external spaces as direct conversations with the internal. An environment that reflects my ideal vibe on the inside lets me create more freely. 

This is me seeing inspiration as the muse and the muse is a guest to be welcomed in as warmly as a lover. I light the proverbial fireplace for her. Intentionally setting the tone in my space sends a private message to the body and mind that says, “relax, this is where the magic happens."

How do you create sacred space in your studio/workspace/home? My loft often serves as all three. Here’s a list of small things that have added up for me:

  1. White Walls . I used to spend a lot of time figuring out what I wanted on my walls, where to hang it, how it would read to people visiting, and how long I wanted to see it on a daily basis. All of that unnecessary noise faded when I decided to leave my walls blank. My mantra since then has been “clear head, clear walls.” Leaves more room for imagination. And functions well for last minute photo shoots.
  2. Mood Lighting. Investing in a wi-fi connected lighting system felt like a nerd luxury at one time, but now after a year’s worth of use it's one of the most important pieces in my home and studio. With the geofencing feature my lights turn on before I open the front door, and I can set the theme from my phone with a tap of the app. When I sit down to work on a song I usually wash the room in bluish purple hues, but my theme for reading/more domestic duties is reds and creams. 
  3. The Kettle. As a singer I’ve criminally underestimated the health benefits of hot water. After my friends at the Chopra Center sent me some of their organic ginger tea, I realized I was doing it wrong and finally bought an old school water kettle. It’s a bath for the senses when you think about it: the high pitched whistle when the water hits a boiling point, the steam on my face as I’m pouring it to brew, and of course that herbal taste and smell. It’s all simple preparation for a working session that makes a difference.
  4. Smoke + Oil. Small spaces can easily be compromised by the wrong scent, but the ritual of lighting incense not only neutralizes the air but also adds a calming routine to my day. My default is original Nag Champa. For the bathroom I use eucalyptus oil (an essential by NOW Foods) to open the sinuses while I shower.
  5. Wireless Sound. Bluetooth speakers are pretty standard these days, but I underestimated the power of having one that is reliable, portable, and sounds great all the time. I use a Bose Soundlink, which lets me seamlessly pass a song from my headphones to the room as I walk in the door. It's uncomplicated and it's worth it.

Bonus: There’s a very strong book with a fluffy title out there that has really changed the way I view my space and my things. The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up. I intend to post a follow-up focused on the rules in this bestseller. I also look forward to highlighting other artists and their unique ways of creating sacred space. If you have any ideas, please email them here


4 Essential Lessons from 2015

1. Build a tribe. When you know who you are and where you want to go, the people in your circle should reflect that. When you don't have a place to fit in, it takes intention to build a community where you do.

I was effectively on my own at the beginning of the year. Having let go of the team I had spent the last 3 years working with, it was both a sigh of relief and a point of pressure.

Instead of feeding my insecurities, I focused on the creative scene I wanted to live in and paid attention to the people around me who were already there. It went beyond just working on tracks or hopping on a lineup. More like three-hour coffee talks and agenda-free vibe sessions at my home studio. Those same one-on-ones led to other opportunities to connect, from after-hours warehouse parties to mini-tours in other cities and states.

Everywhere I went, I made a point to be interested in others and be genuine with my artist story, my growth process, and my vision for Still Mind. Putting myself out there attracted people of like-mind who were able to contribute to my cause, because without even trying I was adding to theirs.

2. Be generous. With your ideas, with your truth, and with your expressions of gratitude. Doors will begin to unlock. If I wasn't vocal about my vision and my process with the people who were open to me, StillMind.co as you see it wouldn't exist. After months of planting seed after seed and talking ideas through in LA with my friend and creative director Brett, it all came together on a flight home from Tokyo. At first it took a lot of vulnerability to say, "Here's something I'm working through. I'm not sure yet of all the pieces. What do you think?" But because I had a tribe of people I could trust, I was able to take that step.

3. Live patience. If persistence (aka hustle) is one side of the coin, then patience is the other. When putting together the video for the song "Relapse" I knew we'd be up against a lot of constraints - budget, resources, and time of course being a huge one. But the priority was the creative. By establishing quality as the main hustle, we had no choice but to make patience just as much a part of the plan as everything else. Personally, I had to embody patience.

With a handpicked team of talent and crew devoting time, shoot days had to be pushed back to accommodate other jobs (months). Concept had to be reworked and re-framed based on a few essential meetings (days). Many collaborators came right when we needed them like Sophia Stoller, the choreographer behind all of the key body movements in the video. A friend from college I hadn't seen in years, she appeared in my feed on a day I felt we had stalled. And she was perfect. It would not have been the same had we compromised earlier, or skipped any part of the process before. 

When it was all said and done, a video we initially brainstormed in April was released in December. And it was worth every minute.

4. Every day is day one. 2015 was all about forming the right habits - all of the rituals that could help me sustain as a human being first, and then as an artist. The one game-changing mental shift in all of this was to see each day as a new beginning. Maybe I skipped a day of meditation, but it didn't matter because I could pick it back up the next. Instead of beating myself up over the song I didn't finish yesterday, I could start fresh on a new writing session today. I broke my goals down into micro-achievements I could rack up to boost myself up with. If I could just lay the yoga mat out, that was worth something - and made it easier to get down to the practice for that day.

Now that the cycle of the Shift EP is winding down, this is a motto I have to repeat to beat the limits of perfectionism on my next project.

Forget about New Year's resolutions. Every day is a new chance to set an intention, re-commit to yourself, and take another step in the right direction.

Photo via Diane Jong.

Photo via Diane Jong.

Deebs & Jarell Perry - Relapse (Official Music Video)

Support “Relapse" and the rest of the SHIFT EP here

FADER premiere here.  Hypetrak Q&A here

Directed by Yoshino

Executive Producer: Meagan Judkins
Editor/FX Producer: Ben Reyes
Director of Photography: Alex Themistocleous
Production Assistant: Nick King
Wardrobe Stylist: Krissie Torgerson
MUA: Sherri Celis
Hair Stylist: Castillo
2nd Camera Op: Daniel Guevara
1st AC: James Goethals
2nd AC: Seth Cook
Gaffer: Chris Swainston
Grip: Will Chan
Research: Darran Moore
Choreographer: Sophia Stoller

Featuring
Kayla Johnson
Jarell Perry
Dina Lasso
Yvonne Lacombe 

Special thanks:
Milk Studios